Lucylou314

OK now I have 6 lousy pounds until my first mini goal!  I set this goal a steep one on purpose so that it would give me incentive to at least make it to my first mini goal.  It has been such a long time and sometimes I am so sick of being good I could barf!!!!!  HOWEVER I see the scale moving in the downward direction how be it slowly and I am so excited to have my real self back!!!!  I know what Jo said about putting your life on hold UNTIL something or another. But Im sure you all know what I mean when I say that sometimes this weight is just such a bummer and there are things I CANNOT do now that I could when I was slimmer.  But I have noticed a huge difference in how I am physically now as opposed to 3 months ago when I started and that makes me think how much better I will feel 3 months from now!!!!!!  I have a little less than 5 months until christmas and I cannot wait to have a christmas where I dont feel like the oddball fat lady next to everyone else.  Last christmas I had a nephew (who was only 8 at the time) tell me that I had gained weight!  I wanted to punch him in the nose!!!!!  I was so upset that a child would dare say something like that to an adult in the first place but if you knew this kid you would understand my anger.  His nickname is 555…..not quite the antichrist but darn close!  Anyway, NOBODY will be saying that to me this christmas!!!  I also feel good that I have not had to pay anyone hundreds of dollars to lose weight.  My sister in law paid hundreds of dollars for some wafer diet where you eat every other day and on the alternate days you eat these dumb wafers and eat fruit only.  She lost 10 pounds in 3 MONTHS!  I told her she should throw them away and just eat healthy and smart every day.  ANYWAY Im babbling again.  I have a goal to be at my mini goal asap!  Wish me luck yall.