OK now I have 6 lousy pounds until my first mini goal!  I set this goal a steep one on purpose so that it would give me incentive to at least make it to my first mini goal.  It has been such a long time and sometimes I am so sick of being good I could barf!!!!!  HOWEVER I see the scale moving in the downward direction how be it slowly and I am so excited to have my real self back!!!!  I know what Jo said about putting your life on hold UNTIL something or another. But Im sure you all know what I mean when I say that sometimes this weight is just such a bummer and there are things I CANNOT do now that I could when I was slimmer.  But I have noticed a huge difference in how I am physically now as opposed to 3 months ago when I started and that makes me think how much better I will feel 3 months from now!!!!!!  I have a little less than 5 months until christmas and I cannot wait to have a christmas where I dont feel like the oddball fat lady next to everyone else.  Last christmas I had a nephew (who was only 8 at the time) tell me that I had gained weight!  I wanted to punch him in the nose!!!!!  I was so upset that a child would dare say something like that to an adult in the first place but if you knew this kid you would understand my anger.  His nickname is 555…..not quite the antichrist but darn close!  Anyway, NOBODY will be saying that to me this christmas!!!  I also feel good that I have not had to pay anyone hundreds of dollars to lose weight.  My sister in law paid hundreds of dollars for some wafer diet where you eat every other day and on the alternate days you eat these dumb wafers and eat fruit only.  She lost 10 pounds in 3 MONTHS!  I told her she should throw them away and just eat healthy and smart every day.  ANYWAY Im babbling again.  I have a goal to be at my mini goal asap!  Wish me luck yall.

Hey everyone!  I am so very sorry I have not been here for such a long time!  My personal life is a big mess right now and I just have been very down in the dumps and really not felt much like doing anything at all.  I have also been keeping very busy with my 2 boys this summer and trying to keep them entertained as well as in line.  I am so deeply sorry that I have not been here, although my food has been pretty darn good for as much stress as I have been under.  7 more nasty fatties until I get to my first mini goal!!!!  YEAH!!!!  I am going to really try to check in each day and keep all of you my friends and buddies informed and up to date.  I miss you all very much and hope that you all can forgive me for being such a jerk!!!!  ME

Have not been blogging lately though I have been doing ok with my food,no major upsets.  PMSing though so craving stuff a bit.  EEEEEKS  Having a very hard personal time right now that is unrelated to food so please all keep me in your thoughts and prayers. 

Ok I was at walmart today and bought a pair of size 18 jeans!  This for me is a major wonder as when I started my program I could not get my fat a** into the 20’s I had and refused to buy larger ones.  Soooo Im guessing Im down at least 2 sizes from where I started which is a great feeling.  Buuutttttt, and theres ALWAYS a butt ()  I still have a looonnnnnnggggg ways to go before I get into my size 3 that I desire to get into.  I was a 3 when I met my husband and Id really like to get back to that. if I can.  Actually Id be happy with a 5, I mean I make myself so angry because I was actually buying my shirts and tops in the girls department because they are cheaper  LOL  especially tee shirts and stuff that an older woman looks ok in not the little girl styles.  SIGH   I just long to be thin so much and I know that each pound is one pound less but some days it just seems so far out of reach…… But (there goes that butt again) I will keep on reaching and I will get to my goal.  I saw a man over 700 pounds on the Oprah DVD thingy and HE lost weight on his own with no drugs and no surgery. If he can do it, I …….WE can do it.  So everyone I will keep on keeping on.  Going on a dinner cruise tonight with my hubby….OH OH buffet here I come!!!!!  But Ive done well today so I can have a good time and not feel guilty.  AND its going to be 100 degrees here EEEEEEKKKKKKK.  Im real glad the boat has an air conditioned part too!!!!!!!  Hopefully I wont fall off!!!  LOL I may PUSH my husband off though!     Do ya think the ST. Croix river is cold this time of year?????   LOL  wish me luck and prayers buddies so I can focus on the beauty of Gods creation and having fun instead of focusing totally on food tonight.  LATER…………………………..

p.s.  Im down another POUND

Im doing pretty good with my food these days, not weighing in until next week though.  Not much to say except darn is it ever HOT here! 

  ALrighty then Im back from swimming and did we ever have  a blast!  We swam all day long and finally my daughter, husband and I went all the way across the river. (st.croix)  I was a little bit nervous about going all the way across but I had it as a goal and finally got up the nerve to do it along with those 2!  I am soooooo proud of myself for doing it!  We had so much fun I want to go back tomorrow!!!!!   LOL  any takers??????   We had a picnic but I made low fat tuna sandwiches and egg salad (low fat also) and Im sure we wore off those calories anyway! 

My kids are exausted, Im exausted and my husband is SLEEPING LOL.  So he must be too! 

I will try to write later buddies but dont know if I will be awake!!!!   I will try my best.  Hope everyone else had a great day too!

Only 10 more pounds to go to my first mini goal buddys!!!!!!  I chose a very steep mini goal for the first time so as to insure that I would at least see it that far.  The next one will be a lot less and I am soooo looking forward to finally being under 200 pounds!!!!!  I have not been under that since before my 3 1/2 yr old son was born. Even though my loss has been substantial I still feel like a big fat cow when I look in the mirror.  It is so hard not to hate myself for what I have done to my body.  I am determined to see this through and darn it I tell myself NEVER again will I abuse my body like this.  With all your help I know this is true, I am so blessed to have all my buddies to keep me motivated and feeling like I can do it.  Thanks so very much to you all!    Today Im going to the beach and get some swimmercise and have fun with my family.  Talk to you all later tonight. 

I have lost 1more pound and I am very happy about that. That means one less to go before I get to my goal weight.  Sooooo  I want to make sure today is a good day for those nasty fat grams and I.  We struggle so at times.  Im thinking about making something pumpkin to eat for dessert, low fat of course and pumpkin has fiber too so thats a great benefit also.  Having baked chicken and zatarans for din din tonight!!!!  Yummmy.  Soooo here I go ……………………………………..
DEATH TO FAT!!!  AND WOE TO FAT GRAMS!!!!!!!

I really dont want to blog today so Im not going to say much just that today was uneventful and I did pretty well with my fat intake though I did have popcorn last night that I should not have had. No more weight lost as of yet I dont think and Im kind of depressed tonight so Im going to bed.

Well yesterday was a pretty good day. My fat intake was almost nil until last night when we went out to supper at the Red Robin.  But I chose a very healthy entree with 2 grilled chicken breasts and a side salad (ok so it came with dressing too but on the side) so I dunked instead of poured it on which seems to really help me eat less dressing and I dont know about anyone else but nonfat and most low fat dressings taste like POOOOOOso I would just rather have the real stuff but less of it.  Also at home I will put a little milk in it if its a creamy one to thin it out a bit. So I guess I did pretty darn good yesterday, I only had water to drink at dinner too and resisted the sugary lemonade I wanted or the malt which sounded really great!  Which by the way a few months ago the malt would have been history!  I also had 4 or 5 of my husbands fries which were very good and I enjoyed them without having a whole order of my own.  But the scale reads the same today and hopefully I will see another pound gone before too long.I kind of find it enjoyable now to find other things that make me happy besides eating, cooking and thinking about eating and cooking!  LOL Problem is that Im such a fantastic cook!    mmmmmm pumpkin pie (which can be very low fat by the way)  LOL  looking forward to fall time and all that goes along with it.