OK OK I am listening!  I went to the grocery store and bought a whole bunch of chicken breast (boneless and skinless) on sale for 1.99 lb.  I am currently cooking it in some white wine and spices and Im going to take it with me when we leave tomorrow so I will have a low fat nutritous alternative and wont be so tempted to cheat!!!  Hopefully the baked lays and low fat other stuff I have will keep me happy and I can dwell on having fun with my boys instead of food food food.  Please all of you keep me in your thoughts and prayers this weekend!  I want to do a lot of swimming and getting RID of fat and not gaining fat!!!!! LOL

Ok so Im all excited about losing weight yesterday and today I feel awful.  OH how I hate pms.  I just feel like the fattest person on earth and that this will never happen for me!!!!  Considering asking someone to break my jaw so I can have it wired shut for a spell!!!!  LOL not really I dont like pain, it hurts me (as daffy duck once said). Anyway buddies, I need help and encouragement right now. Sorry Im not trying to be whiny or ungrateful for how far Ive come but it just seems so pointless at times, even though I know its not.  The goal line just seems very far away right now and the football is getting heavy!  This weekend we are planning a few nights away for the 4th and Im dreading it because Im scared of the food aspect.  I guess I can just do what Dr. Phil says in these circumstances, set yourself up for success.  I will bring plenty of stuff I CAN eat to avoid those things I cant eat or shouldnt eat!  Wish me luck buddies. I will be here until saturday afternoon and then gone until tuesday so I will be back before I leave!  Love you all, me

Well I had dinner and did really well!!!! I had 1 fish filet (6 grams of fat)2 small corn (1 gram fat) and some baked beans (not sure how much but not much fat) and a pepsi one. Oh and also a half of bun with 1 tsp. butter. Soooo all in all it was a very good day!  Yeah! 

OK OK now Im blogging!  LOL   Well I finally got on the scale today after being good the past hmmmm well few days anyway.  Says I lost 2 lbs but mind you I have not weighed in since June 7th soooooo………………… thats not really that good and I must say Im very disappointed in myself for cheating on the days that I did, I could have been down another 5 at least!  But at least its not a gain!  Anyway, I guess by christmas I might actually feel comfortable showing my arms in public LOL.  If not I can decorate them with christmas lights and bulbs.   SOOOOO I have done good today so far and I hope to stay good the rest of the day.  Wish me well my buddies and I will blog at you later…..ME

So mexican food night tonight!!!!!  OLE!MY favorite kind of food and my favorite mexican restaurant!  Juan Julios in forest lake. Hey if any of you ever get to forest lake minnesota (which Im SURE is on your list of places to see before you die) you have to go there it is the best ever!!!  I did good though, the only bad thing was the chips that go with the salsa. Otherwise I ate a salad that has no cheese, no sour cream, and no guac!!  Yes I wanted them ALL very badly but I didnt want an extra butt cheek tomorrow morning!!!  LOL or another chin, the 2 I have now will suffice thankyou very much.  Soooo, hopefully that is it for tonight and tomorrow will be good too!!!!!   Talk at ya soon yall

Oh I wish I were an Oscar mayer wiener………….Well maybe a chocolate brownie.  This is not good, not even 6 AM and Im up and thinking about food and my stomach is growling too.  I am going to go into the kitchen and drink some fiber yuckie stuff and go back to bed and see if I cant just dream about food instead of ingest some at this early hour!  I am in trouble if this doesnt work!!!!!!!!!    LOL  mmmmmmmmbacon

Well ok today was pretty good for me!  I did weller (ok so weller is not a word) than I thought I would!  I just need someone to PLEASE come over and wire my mouth shut!!!  Any takers??? Just to know I did better today than yesterday is a good feeling but I wish I could fall asleep and wake up in 2 weeks minus about 50 pounds with a brand new firm body and no stretch marks!!!!  HAHAHAHA I know thats asking for a bit much, ok I will settle for the minus 50 pounds!!!!    The stretch marks can be covered up!  Im just gonna wear a tent for now!

HMMMMM wonder if my husband wants to go camping!!!!!!!

Today is sunday and Im not going to blog…..wait a minute I am blogging.  ANyway, ok day no really bad foods and I will NOT eat before bed!!!!!!!!     Even if I have to sew meee lips shut!

OK so I ate finally today after going back to bed!  LOL  anyway, I ate a chicken breast sandwich with ff miracle whip and some left over green beans with ff fake butter on them.  I did good!  Now if I can get in some more exercise today and keep busy I will be fine!!!! 

DAMN  I need a sugardaddy to buy me a personal trainer!!!!    LOL

Ok so those stupid cookies are still in my kitchen!  NO I have not had any more since the car show and I am not planning on it either.  I did manage a bike ride this morning however, it felt good except they really need to invent a bike seat that doesnt cause extreme pain in the crotch area!!!!  OUCH  and also my hands went entirely numb. But other than that HEY it was a great time.  No really the morning here is beautiful and it really was nice, just wish I could have stayed out longer than I did.  AND I  have pms and  the wonderful pms headache that goes with it each month ( gee when I was a teen in the 70’s I boogied, now Im old and I bloggy)